My mother passed away this month. With all my medical issues going on, i failed to realize how much she was suffering with her issues. Maybe if I would have caught on earlier, made her go to her doctor instead of just letting her say she had an appointment in four months. She was as stubborn as me, I need to get off my ass and start doing better. I wanted to learn how to be a web developer and in two years I have learned very little. With all the knowledge at my literal fingertips, and i choose to wallow in my self-pity and focus on all the things i could not change. No longer will I sit by and not do anything more with my life because I keep thinking every time i start something that something bad happens. I roll with the punches and don’t let much get to me as far as being happy, but in my professional life i let it affect me. I need to stop letting that happen and buckle down so i can make something of the little time i know i have left in this world.
Mom, I will miss you and love you forever. You were my rock in this world. No matter what you always loved us and made us feel like things would be okay. You’re not here to reassure me anymore, which means I have to learn to reassure myself. Thank you for everything you taught me, showing me if there were things you really wanted you could find a way. we love you Mom.
R.I.P Tammy Lee